for gabby
mom sends me a birthday cake
rainbow sprinkes get lost in the carpet
all i think about these days is death
and the frosting on my kitchen counter
later that night
i will leave the party with calvin
return to silent interlude
while livie is in some other black
that i cannot save her from
that night
gabby will not make it home
across the subway tracks calvin and i make funny faces
whatever space between us shortened by the ending of night
and already before the train comes i am mourning
the way the moon fogged the sky
the station cased forever after in myth
that night
i will light the colored candles myself
calvin will slide into the next kaleidoscope mirror
livie will watch wall-e in the soft folds of faraway sheets
the glow of the television reaching me even still
gabby will be cast into the shadow of the night air
stretching into something distant
she will spin up into the ether
hold her breath
and grasp
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